What does God want from ME?
A more committed individual  
A more balanced individual
A more kind of “Him” individual

So where do I go from here? How do I accomplish the things and make them a part of my being?

God’s ultimate goal for me right now is for me to utilize my faith. Seek Him. Perform my job duties that He had equipped me with:
Spiritual Warfare
Healing & Compassion

He has called the ME. So, stop using other things and people to validate the ME in me. The passion in you; the power in you; the ability in you; the God instructions in you; who God has said you are. Nothing and noone can EVER change this.